I would like to thank
Sue D. for helping me with the plotting. Helen H. for an absolutely
brilliant job as beta. Helen provided great editing and an education
with tact and thoughtfulness. Liz as always for keeping me
writing.
THE ONLY THING
by
Beverly
Example is not the main thing in
influencing others. It is the only
thing.
- Albert
Schweitzer
“If it's not bleeding, don't
touch it.” Lee licked his lips and
twisted his head away from Chip. “Shouldn't
you be on lookout… or something?”
“Something. Pat’s out
there and this is very nasty, I need to clean it out.”
“Leave it alone, you can't do
anything Jamie can't do better. Please,
Chip, don't touch it.”
Lee's voice was so soft, if
Chip hadn't been so close he wouldn’t have heard him. Chip looked up from the half hidden, bloody
bandage to Lee's hand resting on his sleeve and then to Lee’s face. Lee’s eyes were closed, his brow creased with
concentration, his breathing shallow and rasping.
“We're a long way from Jamie
and this is very dirty.” Chip covered
Lee's hand with his and waited until Lee opened his eyes. “I'm sorry, buddy, I've got to try and disinfect
it and put a clean bandage on it.”
“Hurts, is all.” Lee turned his head away from Chip's scrutiny.
“I'm going to put some water
on it, let the water loosen the bandage.”
“Leave it, Chip, leave it
alone.” There was more of Lee in that, less a suggestion than an order and Chip
hesitated. “I'm worried about infection,
it should be cleaned out.”
“Bandage is dirty…wound
isn't.” Lee looked directly at Chip. “Leave it be.”
Chip turned on his penlight
and shaded it carefully with his hand while he tried to get a good look at the
bandage wrapped around Lee's chest and stomach.
Most of it was invisible under his t-shirt and jacket, but he could see
enough to confirm that the outside of the bandage was certainly dirty.
“Turn that light out,” Lee
hissed in a stronger voice, sounding for a moment like the Captain of the Seaview
and not the nearly dead man he and Patterson had picked up in the little
village four hours ago.
Chip clicked the light off. “You want some water?” He figured as much blood, as Lee had no doubt
lost, he'd be thirsty.
“Yeah,” Lee's voice fell away
to a whisper as he spoke.
Chip instantly felt guilty that
he'd forced that display of command from Lee with his attempt to remove the
bandage. He offered Lee the water and
when his friend couldn’t manage to move his arm enough to get the bottle to his
mouth did that for him as well.
Lee took a couple of swallows
and then gave a pull on Chip's arm where his hand rested. “Thanks.”
“You need to drink, you've probably lost a lot of blood.”
“I can't, I'll lose it if I
do,” Lee leaned his head back against the dirt bank. “Bit nauseous.”
“We're supposed to meet the
flying sub at 0100 hours, they'll be there the next
three nights.” Chip smiled at Lee
although he doubted the other man could see him in the darkness. “I imagine the admiral will have the flying
sub there at 0100 and stay until we get there or hell freezes over.”
“Not tonight.”
“No, I agree, we're still at
least thirty miles from the cove, can you go a little
further though? I'd like to get as close
as we can before we hole up for the day.”
“Needs
must.” Lee gave him a small squeeze where his hand
still rested on Chip's arm.
Chip put his free hand on
Lee's face feeling how warm his skin was before pushing the damp hair back off
his forehead. “Did they give you any
drugs at the clinic? I can give you some
pain medication if they didn't shoot you full of drugs.”
“Doesn't feel like they gave
me anything.”
Chip dug the morphine ampoule
out of the first aid kit and pulled Lee’s jacket down enough so he could give
him half the shot in his shoulder. He
sat squatting beside his friend until he saw Lee relax a little against the
damp, dirt bank and then turned to check in with Patterson thirty yards away on
lookout.
“How’s the skipper?” Pat asked softly as Chip crawled into his
improvised blind down hill off the trail they’d been following for the past
four hours.
“Not great.” Chip paused to look back at Lee’s still form
picked out by the garish green of his night vision goggles. He sighed softly
and leaned back against the big tree that was hiding them from the trail. He’d been afraid he wouldn’t find Lee. That his friend had run out of luck and he’d
just disappear into Russia and never be seen or heard of again. Two weeks they’d been cruising up and down
the hundred miles of coast, wandering in and out of small villages, relying
upon ONI and Russian Intelligence contacts to try and find a trace of their
lost landing party.
This was the third foray Chip
and Patterson had made to follow up on unusual radio traffic on the outskirts
of rebel territory. Kowalski and O’Brien
had been their other away team, taking turns investigating possible Crane
sightings, often both parties ashore at the same time.
Chip could feel the anger
building again. ONI had informed them
that the landing party had failed to make their final extraction rendezvous and
was presumed lost. That was it, miss the
rendezvous and as far as ONI was concerned the mission was a failure and the
team dead. Chip took a deep breath to
allow his anger to cool.
He’d been so glad to see Lee
come struggling down the muddy lane of that farming village, leaning on some
old lady who looked like she should be starring in a Russian fairy tale. He smiled slightly; leave it up to Lee to
find someone to mother him even in the middle of Siberia.
“Go ahead, sir, I’ve got
this.” Patterson nodded toward Lee.
Chip gave him a quick squeeze
to his shoulder and slipped back down the hill.
He wanted to check on Lee again, make sure he was really there and then
he wanted to get him back to Seaview
as fast as he could. Back to Seaview and back to sea where he
belonged. Out of this wood and out of
this country where he most definitely didn’t belong.
**********
Later, he wasn’t sure how
much later, but sometime after Chip gave him the morphine, he woke, still
alive, still wet and cold. He could see
his friend and Patterson as dark shadows outlined by the moonlight, Chip's
paler hair picking up enough light for him to identify the one from the other. He was so glad to have these men here. Men he could trust.
He was very tired of making
his own way, of being alone. He’d been
eluding separatists and moving east for days.
All the time half lost in the forest and his fever, avoiding any signs
of civilization, fearful that he’d again end up a prisoner. He’d been two days with no food and at the end
of his strength when he’d approached the small outlying farm near the village
of Uelen. That he’d ended up in a
village loyal to the government and not the separatists was the first piece of
good luck he’d had on the mission.
He opened his eyes and looked
at Chip and Patterson again. When the
old woman who was acting as his nurse told him there were two strangers in town
asking about the injured man he’d been sure his pursuers had found him. He’d escaped into the woods overlooking the
clinic, unable to go very far but afraid to stay. He’d hidden in the forest studying the
strangers, watching them wander about the village. When he recognized Chip and Pat he’d been
sure they must be part of some fever dream.
Chip and Pat in Uelen.
He was so glad not to be
alone.
“Lee, we have to go on, can you walk?”
“Sure.” It came out in a whisper. When no one replied he tried again. “Yeah, sure.” Stronger this time. He doubted it though and wondered why Chip
bothered to ask. They'd stopped because
he couldn't go on and that had only been… he realized he’d lost track of time. The pain was less so maybe they’d been
sitting here for a while. Maybe this was
another night?
“Help me up.” He reached out toward the shadow that was
Chip. When he felt his friend grasp his hand,
he didn't have the strength to return his squeeze, let alone get up.
“Lee, wait a bit, until we
figure out where we're going.”
Lee watched the two men
moving in the shadows. He knew they were
making decisions in which he should be participating. He opened his mouth slightly trying to get
more air. Maybe he should have told Chip
to give him the whole morphine dose.
“Patterson is going to start
off helping you, while I scout ahead.”
Lee jerked awake with a start. He hadn't heard Chip coming. The start forced an involuntary groan from
him. He had to be more careful. He had to stay alert and keep quiet.
“What?”
“We've got to go, Lee, Pat's
going to help you.”
Lee nodded into the darkness. After a minute, he felt someone's hand on his
upper arm and he grabbed hold of Pat’s forearm with his other hand and tried to
force himself to his feet. The dizziness
nearly overwhelmed him and he thought he was falling. His stomach revolted at the sudden movement
and he swallowed convulsively to keep the water Chip had given him in its
proper place.
“Hang on, Skipper, I've got
you.”
He could hear Patterson
talking to him but he couldn't make out the words as he swung in space. He concentrated on the pain in his stomach,
using it to find his balance.
“I don't know about this, Mr.
Morton.” Patterson's tone belied his
strong grip.
“Let's go,” Lee managed, not sure
if he’d said it or thought it.
“We’ll carry you.”
“No, I can go for a while.” Lee managed that a little better, but he still
needed to wait for Pat to take the first step and then it took a moment before
he could remember how to make his leg move forward.
The march faded to a blur
after the first few minutes. Each step
an act of will against the exhaustion that threatened to put him out between
one step and the next. Had it not been
for the awful pain he would have slept walking.
He tried to take as much weight as he could on his own, but he knew
Patterson was practically carrying him. He
couldn't imagine they were covering any ground in the darkness with him slowing
them down. There was no point in asking
them to leave him. They’d no more leave
him than he’d leave them. Still it would
be better. He could sleep and his
friends would be safe. But he said
nothing, hadn't the strength to say anything.
He concentrated on taking the next step, and the next, and the next.
An eternity later, they
stopped and sat. After what seemed like
seconds he was up again, this time with Chip’s arm around his waist. The pain of that support was awful, squeezing
against the wounds and the broken ribs. He
said nothing, Chip’s closeness a reassurance worth any amount of pain.
Lee woke lying on the ground
leaning back against a warm body. An arm
was across his chest, a hand he knew, holding his jacket in a fist. It was Chip behind him. Lee looked up from his contemplation of
Chip's hand. It was daylight. The woods were so thick it was difficult to
determine how late it was, but it was day for certain. He carefully brought his legs up to ease some
of the pain in his middle and felt Chip shift against his back.
“Hey, buddy,” came from
behind him. “We're about fifteen miles
from the beach, one more night march and we should be there.”
Lee nodded, too tired to
speak, they'd gone fifteen miles last night.
Fifteen miles and it'd almost killed him. That endless night of walking had worn him
down until he felt as if Chip’s arm around him was all that held him in the
world. Lee closed his eyes and slept, his back warm against his friend.
The next time he opened his
eyes Chip was sitting beside him leaning back against the big tree.
“Help me up.” Chip lifted his shoulders and Lee managed to
turn so he could rest against a part of the fir tree’s huge roots. “What time is it?”
“1100, we stopped around 0400
while it was still dark, not that it ever seems to get too bright here.” Chip was rummaging in his small knapsack as
he spoke and passed Lee a bottle of water, cover already removed. Lee took the bottle in his good hand. The water was cold and tasted vaguely of the
plastic bottle. It was wonderful. Lee drank as much as he thought he could keep
down and passed the bottle back to Chip.
“Where's Pat?”
“About fifty yards up the
bank near the trail.”
Lee nodded and looked around
their little campsite. Chip had laid a
ground cloth down on the perpetually wet mud of the forest floor and the two of
them had been sharing it. The rest of
their camp consisted of Chip and Patterson's knapsacks piled against the roots
of the fir tree. Lee glanced up into the
canopy over their heads. No water was
currently falling so they were between showers.
Late autumn in northeastern Russia meant it mostly rained, sometimes it
sleeted and occasionally it snowed, but mostly it rained. He’d been wet and cold ever since he arrived
a lifetime ago. Now, thanks to the fever
he wasn’t cold any more, but he was still wet.
“Can you eat something?”
Lee shook his head, “More
water would be good, though.”
Chip pulled out an energy bar
and they sat side by side eating and drinking, listening to the noise of the
forest.
“Pretty amazing place,” Chip
offered. “But maybe you should vacation somewhere
else next time.”
“I’ll take it under
advisement.” Lee’s eyes roamed around
their hiding place, and then settled on Chip, who was conspicuously not looking
at him. “What’re you doing here?”
“Rescuing
you, of course.”
“You know what I mean.”
“The admiral doesn't quit as
easily as your friends in ONI.” Lee made
no comment and Chip continued. “The
district Doctor reported he’d treated a gunshot wound in Uelen.” At Lee's quizzical look Chip smiled. “Sparks has been monitoring all of the
airwaves in the area with a new piece of software, pulling up any reports of
injuries. We've been checking out the
clinics and local doctors that report anything unusual. With you almost two weeks over due we figured
you’d either been injured or captured or both and sooner or later we would
intercept something.”
Lee passed Chip a small piece
of oilcloth. “The whole thing was a
complete snafu from start to finish. I
got some photos. Hang on to that for me,
okay?”
Chip took the piece of cloth. The edge of the photo memory card that had
cost so much in blood and pain was hard under his hand. He slipped it into his pocket.
“I’m fairly sure it wasn’t
what ONI was hoping for, but that’s all there was where they sent us.” Lee looked over at his friend.
Chip was scowling his most I
hate ONI look and after a moment Lee nodded and leaned his head back
against the tree. He couldn’t blame
Chip, he wasn’t too happy with his handlers at ONI either. “We got in the compound and got the photos
but that brought most of the rebels down on us.
“How did you end up in that
little village?”
“Mike was killed getting the
pictures and Steve wounded. We were on
the run for four days before I had to get him medical help. Turned out the safe doctor they gave us in
Anadyr was long gone, replaced with a man more loyal to the separatists than
the government. We weren't at the clinic
two hours when the place was overrun with rebels. They never gave Steve a chance.” Lee stopped talking, lost in the remembering
and the mourning.
Chip nodded his head. “The admiral talked to ONI and his friends in
Russian Intelligence, so we knew you were in trouble, but once you landed and
they lost contact we didn’t know who’d survived or where you were.” Chip gave Lee the water bottle, placing it in
his friend's hand and closing his fingers around it. The two men sat together in silence while Lee
sipped on the water.
When the water was gone Lee spoke
again. “I told the rebels I'd found
Steve in the forest and was bringing him in to the clinic. They didn't believe me but they couldn't
prove otherwise, weren’t sure if I was some useless local or some valuable
hostage. As time passed they went with
the useless local idea. They got
careless, I got away.” Lee glanced at
Chip out of the corner of his eye. “Not
quite as clean a get away as it might have been. Ended up in Uelen looking
for a meal and a band-aid.”
Chip looked away from Lee and
up toward the dense, pine boughs overhead.
“Couldn't prove otherwise, huh?”
When Lee started to lose his grip on the bottle Chip reached over
and retrieved it. “You're going to have
to tell me at some point how badly hurt you are.”
Lee winked. “Not dead yet.”
Chip had the good grace to
smile back at him. “Too close, Lee, way
too close.”
Lee made no comment and after
a moment Chip shook his head. “I'm going
to go relieve Patterson, he's been up there for a couple
of hours. Want me to help you lie back
down?”
Lee hesitated. He hated being an invalid.
“We've got another tough walk
to do before 0100 tomorrow.” Chip
reasoned, reading his hesitation so easily that Lee smiled at him and nodded.
“Yes, mother, you may help
but I want another drink first.”
Chip passed Lee a water
bottle and then fussed about getting him as comfortable as he could before
going up to relieve Patterson on his watch.
Pat was better than Chip as
he asked fewer questions. He still
fussed a bit, asking if he was comfortable, did he need anything? Lee reassured him enough that Pat ate one of
the energy bars and then lie down beside him and fell asleep.
Lee lay awake listening to
the sounds of the woods and watching the latest rain fall and bounce on the
plastic sheet that covered them, too sore to sleep and too tired to move. He was feeling the cold now. His fever must be dropping. Somewhere in thinking about the execution of
Steve and wondering what he could have done differently he fell asleep.
Chip woke him with a hiss in
his ear and a hand over his mouth. Lee
froze at the hiss and didn't need the hand.
They laid in their little camp listening to the sounds of a group of men
talking as they passed on the trail above their hiding place. After the last of the men passed Chip started
to say something, but Lee's quick jerk on his arm stopped him. The two of them remained still for another
minute until they heard a lone man walking quietly along the trail, rear guard
to the patrol.
“That should be the last of
them.”
“I'm sorry, Lee.”
“You did nothing, except get
me out of there, for which I shall be eternally grateful.”
Chip refused to meet his
eyes. “I nearly blew it.”
“You’re doing great. Good camp, good guard, don't beat yourself up
about what you don't know.”
“Man, if that isn't the
kettle calling the pot black.” Chip
reached over and put his hand on Lee’s forehead. “How you doing?”
Lee changed the subject. “What time is it?”
Chip pulled a grimy sleeve
back from his watch. “1540.”
“Get Pat, please.”
Chip slipped away and half
crawled, half climbed up the muddy bank.
By the time he and Patterson arrived back in their camp Lee had managed
to lever his shoulders up into a half sitting position against the roots.
“Did you get a look at that
patrol?”
“There were six of them,
Skipper, and then tail end Charlie after they'd all passed.”
“Did they have uniforms?”
“Greenish wool coats mostly,
but no insignias at all that I could see.”
“Head gear?”
“Wool caps
or camo hats.”
“Separatists,” Lee said. “The government doesn't usually patrol here
and when they do it's in greater strength and they're like the U.S. Army, an
insignia for every unit and a badge for everything they do.”
“So what
now?”
“We wait. They won't keep marching once it gets dark,
too cold and wet.”
“They're between us and the
ocean,” Chip said.
“Yeah, they are,” Lee agreed,
“and they'll probably camp right on the trail.
There isn’t another village this far east for
thirty miles. With the couple of hours
daylight they’ve got they should get past our cut-off down to the coast.”
Patterson nodded and crawled
up the bank to sit in his hiding place beside the trail. Chip helped Lee to lie back down in his nest
of ground cover and knapsacks before sitting beside him. The two talked in a desultory fashion about
Chip’s trip to the village, Chip mostly talking, Lee listening.
Two hours later Chip woke Lee
and with Patterson’s help got him carefully to his feet. Patterson folded up the ground cloth and
kicked loose leaves around where they’d been camped to hide their presence. Chip stood supporting most of Lee’s weight
with an arm around his middle so Lee was leaning against him. Lee looked over at his friend in the dark.
“So does this mean we’re
going steady?”
“Don’t get fresh with me or
I’ll let Pat take you home.”
Lee smiled slightly as he
stood with his head resting against Chip’s shoulder waiting for their trek to
begin. The most difficult part of the
walk was getting up the steep muddy bank to the trail. Once they got to the path the walking was
easier and they made slow steady progress for several hours.
“We’re fairly close to where
we need to leave the trail and head west for the coast,” Chip said after
helping Lee to the ground and squatting beside him. “The admiral came up with a transmitter that
sends a low frequency pulse. We can find
them with this receiver if we’re within a few hundred yards. Whatever they’re doing to block satellite
reception doesn’t affect them. I put one
at the cutoff from this trail and more along the way through the woods to the
rendezvous. We’ve only got about five
miles to go once we leave the trail.” Chip
handed Lee one of the small transmitters.
“Keep it close. I don’t want to
lose you again.”
Lee nodded his head, aware
that Chip could see him with his night vision goggles even if he couldn’t see
Chip. Five miles didn’t sound like much
but he knew once they left the trail and headed into the woods and swamp toward
the ocean they’d be moving much slower. “What
time is it?”
“Almost
midnight. We should be okay. Still have six, almost seven hours before
there’s very much light.”
“One hour until your
rendezvous time with the flying sub and what, two hours until he leaves?”
“They’ll wait for us.” Chip said with certainty. “We didn’t make last night’s pick up, they’ll be worried and wait.”
Ten minutes later someone
yelled at them from the side of the trail.
They’d found the lookout for the camp of rebels who’d passed them in the
afternoon. Pat threw himself to the
ground with his rifle ready while Chip hauled Lee into the brush. They were well into the woods by the time
they heard more shouting and the rebels opened fire. They tried to move as quietly as they could
in the deep cover, relying upon stealth to make their escape.
Lee thought they might make
it if they didn’t have him along. He
couldn’t pick his legs up high enough to step over the dead trees that littered
the ground. Every time they came to any
sort of an obstruction Chip had to stop and help him maneuver over it. The rest of the time he was a more or less
dead weight hanging from his friend’s shoulder.
As they tried to hurry it was all he could do to remain conscious with
the increased pain their haste was causing.
Their slow progress continued
for fifteen minutes to the accompaniment of intermittent gunfire and muzzle
flashes that gave the whole affair a sense of unreality, like some sort of slow
motion war movie. He was about to beg
Chip to stop and let him take his chances shooting it out with the rebels when
Pat cried out and fell to the ground.
Chip got Lee down against a
tree and handed him his rifle before turning to go back for Patterson who’d
been covering their retreat. Lee twisted
around, involuntarily grunting with pain, as he brought his knee up and rested
the rifle on it. Most of the firing was
coming to the north and was now a considerable distance away. He held the rifle steady and worked to
control his breathing. Panting the way
he was he’d be lucky to hit the broad side of a barn.
In a few minutes Chip was
back with Patterson.
“How bad is it?”
“I’m okay, Skipper, I stepped
in some kind of trap.”
“A forest full of who knows
what, being shot at by terrorists and we get stopped by an old mink trap?” Chip spoke with an uncharacteristic harshness
as he helped Patterson sit down on the ground next to Lee.
“How bad is it?”
“Bad enough, Lee, he’s going
to have trouble walking.” Chip spoke as
he cut away at Patterson’s pant leg with his knife.
“I can walk, wrap it up,
it’ll bear my weight.”
They needed a new plan but
between the pounding of his heart from the adrenaline rush caused by the ambush
and the pain in his gut from being dragged through the woods by Chip, Lee could
hardly pull two thoughts together. “They
seem to be moving off north.”
“They’ll be back,” Patterson
said sadly.
“It’s a big forest, maybe
not,” Lee offered, knowing if he wasn’t reassuring enough he’d never get the
two men to do what he was about to order done.
“Chip, use the duct tape in the first aid kit. Wrap up Pat’s foot and ankle with it right
over his boot. Wrap it up good and
tight.” Lee watched for a moment as Chip
dug through the knapsack before continuing.
“You’re going to have to leave me.”
“No way!”
He’d known this was going to
make Chip angry so he wasn’t surprised at how tight the other man’s voice
sounded. This was going to be very hard
for Chip.
Lee reached over and grabbed
his friend’s arm. “I’m sorry, I’m at the
limit of what I can do, I can’t go any further.”
Lee needed to make sure that
Chip didn’t feel any responsibility for this; it had to be on him. If this worked out as it very probably would,
he didn’t want Chip living the rest of his life thinking there was something
else he could have done.
“We get Pat’s leg wrapped up
and he’ll be able to walk on it and I can carry you.”
“That’s not going to work and
we all know it.”
“We’ve gotten this far. It isn’t much more than four miles, maybe a
bit more.” Chip looked off to the east
as if he could see the ocean through the trees.
“You need to leave me here,
get some help and come back.”
“I can carry you.”
Chip was kneeling beside Lee,
wrapping the tape around Pat’s foot. Lee
reached over and gently squeezed Chip’s arm.
“I know, Chip, but I’ve got
at least two broken ribs, you pick me up and you’re likely to put one through
some part of my anatomy that I need.”
They all looked up silently
as another burst of gunfire sounded off to their north, perhaps five hundred
yards away. The flashes were dimly
visible through the foliage of the trees followed a moment later by the sound.
“They’re still moving north,
they’ve missed us, we’re okay.” Lee tried to put as much confidence as he
could into that last part. He was so
tired it was difficult to keep his words from slurring.
“We aren’t leaving you. We didn’t come all this way and go through
this to leave you to die, isn’t happening.
We’ll make a stretcher and carry you.”
“You can’t and you know it. You need to make the rendezvous and get back
here with enough men to carry me out or we’re all going to end up either
buzzard food or back where I started in this disaster.”
Chip didn’t say anything but
Lee could see the other man’s anger and frustration in the shape of his dark
shadow.
“Now let’s find some place I
can stay out of sight, so you two can get going.”
Chip made a final appeal. “We don’t need to both go.
“I don’t need a minder, I
need a rescuer. It’s going to take both
of you to get the Zodiac through the surf and far enough out to sea so you can
use the radio or they’ll pick up your transmission and be
all over you in ten minutes. You both
go. And that, Mr. Morton, is an order.” When he saw Chip stiffen and pull back Lee
reached over and grabbed his arm. “I’m
sorry, Chip, there’s no point in one of you sitting here with me. You either get back before someone finds me
and all is well or someone stumbles over me and I’m screwed. There’s no way in either scenario that you
being here makes for a better outcome. You
both go. That’s everyone’s best chance.”
He knew the pain Chip was
feeling at the inevitable nature of this decision and how much he hated it. He knew because he knew how he’d feel were he
in Chip’s place. He wasn’t sure he could
leave Chip, wounded and surrounded by his enemies. He played his final card.
“You need to get Pat back, we’re done talking about it.” Lee tried to spare Chip as much pain as he
could by making it an order and not a shared decision.
It took them five minutes to
find a fairly good blind in the roots of one of the many firs. The tree had a low spot eroded out around its
roots and offered at least the illusion of shelter from the cold rain. Chip pulled out the ground cloth and tried to
make as comfortable a place as possible.
Lee allowed Patterson to get him settled among the roots and fallen
branches. Once in position he had a good
line of sight along their back trail and to the north where they could still
hear intermittent gunfire. Not the most
disciplined group of fighters, he thought as the rebels continued to shoot at
what he hoped was nothing and not some passing trapper.
“Leave me the grenades, a
rifle and Pat’s goggles.” As they passed
him the equipment Lee placed it where he could reach it. Digging in one of the knapsacks he grabbed a
bottle of water and the survival kit. He
set the water aside and pulled out the fishing line stored inside the flap of
the survival kit. He took one of the
grenades and wrapped the line around it several times.
“Chip, take this about fifty yards north of here and wedge the grenade
in a tree and then stretch out all the remaining line. Once you have the line tied off pull the pin. Be careful.”
Chip nodded his understanding
of the simple booby trap and slogged off in the rain to do Lee’s bidding. In two minutes, Chip was back and squatting
down in front of Lee.
“Lee, please.”
“Please what? Please be able
to walk? Please get us all killed? Please sit here with no weapon and let them
take me again?”
“Yeah, something like that.” Chip spoke softly and put his hand on Lee’s
shoulder.
Silence returned as the two
men looked at each other, Chip’s hand still on Lee’s shoulder. Lee reached up
and covered it with his own. He’d known Chip longer than anyone else in his
life. He’d thought of him as his brother for most of that time. He was glad
that if one of them had to stay and one of them had to walk away he got the
easy job of staying. After a moment, he dropped his hand back down to the rifle
lying across his legs.
“Go, buddy, I’ll be here when
you get back one way or the other.”
“One way or the other, what
does that mean, one way or the other?” Chip was
suddenly very angry, his face inches from Lee’s face, practically spitting in
his fury. “What’re you going to do with that other grenade, one way or the
other?”
“I’ll be here, if I’m not,
don’t come looking. I won’t go with them, do you understand?”
“Yes, I understand you
perfectly. Now you listen to me, you had better be here because if you aren’t I
will never, never forgive you.” Chip grabbed Lee’s head with both hands and
tilted his face towards him. “You be here. I may never forgive you anyway, but
you be here.”
“I love you too, buddy.” Lee
reached up and gave Chip’s wrist a quick squeeze. “Now get going, the admiral
hates to be kept waiting. Pat, you be careful.”
“We’ll be right back,
Skipper,” Patterson said, gripping Lee’s shoulder briefly in farewell.
The two men turned and
slogged off, Chip with Patterson’s arm over his shoulders, headed east toward
the sea. Lee leaned his head back against the rough bark of the tree. It had
taken all of what little energy he had left to keep that front up for Chip. He
guessed he must still have been running off the adrenaline from the ambush.
Now, even knowing the woods were full of men intent on killing him, he couldn’t
keep his eyes open.
He was glad to be done with
the agonizing journey. He opened his eyes and looked up at the sky. It had
stopped raining. He could see one or two stars through the thick leaves. Great. All he needed
was for the rain to clear and a good Siberian cold front to move in. He hadn’t
heard any gunfire in several minutes. They could easily be circling back around
to search this area now that they’d stopped shooting at every sound in the
darkness. He had to stay alert for long enough to make sure Chip and Patterson
got away.
The trunk behind him and the
roots he was sitting against became increasingly uncomfortable as time passed
and the last shot of morphine wore off. As the pain in his stomach increased
the desire to lie down became a kind of desperation. He was afraid if he moved
too much he would loose his somewhat precarious purchase on the tree and fall
over and he doubted he’d have the strength to get himself up again. He thought
that Chip and Pat had been gone for at least two hours. They should be almost to the water, or even
in the Zodiac. He allowed his head to lean back against the tree.
He must have slept; he didn’t
think he’d passed out because the grenade exploding woke him instantly. He
could hear someone screaming so he knew it hadn’t been some hapless deer that
set it off. He sure hoped it wasn’t the hunter come to check Pat’s trap.
It hadn’t been any trapper.
He could hear the men yelling and thanks to the modern marvel of Pat’s night
vision goggles he could see them as well. When two of them moved in his
direction he shot and killed one of them and maybe wounded the other. He knew
if he shot again they’d have his position. He waited, scanning the area to his
front, listening for what was invisible behind him.
In the end he was glad he’d
saved the second grenade. He saw one of them moving off to his left and when he
shot him he heard more than saw two others rush at him from the north. He
managed to pull the pin and throw the grenade in time to stop one of them. The
other kept coming, screaming at him in fury or fear. Lee grabbed for his rifle,
knowing he could never get it up in time to fire.
He didn’t need to shoot. The
man kept screaming and ran right past his hiding place and on into the night. He
wasn’t sure if the man had been wounded or so frightened by the grenade that
he’d simply lost control. He listened carefully for a long while only to wake
and realize somewhere in the listening he’d fallen asleep or passed out.
After he dozed off and nearly
tumbled out of his blind for the third or fourth time he knew he needed to do
something. He pushed the rifle away; he’d never have the strength to use it
again. Throwing that grenade had maybe saved his life for a while, but he
thought it might have done something very bad to those broken ribs. If there
were more rebels it would need to be the pistol.
He spent an eternity shifting
and moving around until he was lying on his side across the roots half around
the tree. It was, if anything, less comfortable than the position he’d been in
before, but he tried to console himself, change was good.
He held the admiral’s little
transmitter in his hand like a talisman, feeling the smooth shape of the plastic
capsule that encased it. The admiral had invented this to find him. The United
States Navy hadn’t been able to find a means of communicating through the
network of satellite interference the rebels had created around this part of
eastern Russia, but Admiral Nelson had. Well, not exactly a means of communicating,
since Chip hadn’t been able to contact Seaview any better than Lee’s
SEAL team had been able to contact ONI. Still, Nelson had found a way to help
Chip find him and once he’d found him bring him back to Seaview.
The admiral had kept
searching for him when ONI had stopped. When it was easy to say he was dead and
not a bother to anyone Nelson had kept looking, had spent time in his lab
thinking about how to save him. Lee held that very close as the hours passed
and the pain in his stomach grew and it became harder and harder to stay in his
perch of roots. He thought about the admiral looking for him, inventing for
him, Chip and Pat walking through a hostile forest to find him, carrying him
through the night to save him. When the chills got very bad he wrapped his arms
around his middle and thought about how he’d gone from having no one and
nothing to having friends that would invent transmitters and walk through
forests for him.
He wasn’t sure if he passed
out or fell asleep but it was one or the other because he woke up on his back
off his ground cloth, lying in the mud. The cool felt good on his legs where
they were in the water of a big puddle. He was very hot and he wondered if
maybe the cool water would help with the fire in his stomach. He let go of his
middle with one hand and tried to reach the water. His upper body was still too
high up on the roots and he couldn’t extend his arm far enough. He knew it
wouldn’t be good to drink the water, but he was so thirsty he thought he would
happily take his chances could he reach it. He wondered whether that coolness
of the water would make up for the pain of rolling down the bank. He’d nearly
decided to do it when he remembered his bottle of water.
It took him a long time to
find the bottle. When he did it was because he saw the plastic glinting in the
light and realized that it was morning. He’d made it through the night. He’d
known when he sent Chip away that there was very little chance he would still be alive when he got back. He had a day and part of a night
to get through before they could hope to come back for him. He looked up at no
stars and black leaves that he could distinguish from lighter colored sky. Not
daylight yet, but soon, perhaps half an hour.
He drank a little of the
water, savoring the wetness and considered pouring some of it over his head. He
was hot but he knew the day was cold. He could see the ice crystals on the mud
around him. He was wet, if he waited he’d be plenty
cool in a little while.
He pictured sickbay and
imagined he was lying on a dry bunk. Not normally his favorite place but the
pain and sickbay were tied in his head and that made it easy to visualize. He
pictured the bunk Jamie always put him in when he had him in his clutches. He
put the admiral and Chip next to his bunk. He thanked them for the search, for
the rescue.
For the
friendship.
He thought about the admiral
and Chip. Chip had taught him about brothers and families and friends. Nelson
had taught him about men and fathers. He was so lucky.
Either the cold or the
exhaustion and pain or the fever got away from him. When he got a good grasp of
who and where again, the day was bright sunlight and
cold wind. He remembered waking several times but little else. He found the
water bottle but the cap was off and it was empty. He didn’t know if he’d drunk
it or spilled it but it was gone and he would kill for a drink. He was lying on
his back beside the tree, mostly out of the puddle and very cold. He tried to
pull his legs up to conserve more heat but the mud had frozen, capturing his
clothes and he didn’t have the strength to pull free of the ice.
He thought about Chip and the
rescue party. They couldn’t take a chance on being seen so they wouldn’t be
able to get to shore until dark. He studied the sky above him. It was bright
where he could see a little of it through dark trees. Midmorning he thought.
Another nine or ten hours before they could get a landing party to the shore.
They wouldn’t be back for him until eleven, maybe twelve hours. He was
shivering now and he didn’t think it would matter when they arrived.
When next he woke he thought
at first he’d succeeded in making a new reality of the woods and pain. There
was Chip with the eyes that were so blue they seemed otherworldly. He’d never
told Chip about his eyes, that they were spooky. He’d grown up with Latinos and
African-Americans, some times an Asian or Middle-eastern kid would get thrown
in the mix. But all dark skinned, brown-eyed people.
Even the social workers were dark eyed people.
There were blue-eyed kids at
that fancy school the Cranes sent him to in an effort to make him into
something they wanted. But not like Chip, he’d never seen eyes like Chip’s
until that day he’d walked into their room at the Academy. He’d found them
spooky for a long time, combined with Chip’s open friendliness they’d given him
an unguarded look that Lee hadn’t trusted. No one could be that guileless. He’d
waited for weeks to find out that his roommate was an axe murderer or a child
molester. He couldn’t believe anyone could be so open and honest. He was always
amused that people couldn’t read Chip’s feelings in his face. To him he was the
easiest person he knew to understand. He was the way he looked, good, honest,
and brave, the perfect friend.
“Here, drink some of this,
only a little.” Chip lifted his head up slightly so he could drink from the
water bottle. “That’s enough, you drink too much you’ll be sick.” Chip took the
water away and gently lowered Lee’s head back down to the ground. “We’ll have
you out of here and home in no time, just hang with me for a little longer. We
need to get you into something dry and we’ll be on our way.”
“Chip?” Lee could feel other hands removing his wet clothes
and shifting his body so he cried out with the sudden return of the pain.
“Yeah, buddy, I got you?”
Chip’s hands were warm on his face as he brushed off the mud. “It’s good, Lee.”
He was confused and out of
sync with time, it was daylight and Chip was back. Lee closed his eyes and let
the morphine carry him away from the forest, and the cold and pain. Chip was
here and he was going home.
**************************
When Lee woke up it was in
sickbay. He was dry and warm. He could remember lying in the roots of the tree.
He wondered for a moment if he was imagining all this but then realized his
stomach hurt too much for it to be a dream. This was real. He was home.
“Welcome back, Skipper,
you’ve been back on the boat for almost twelve hours.”
Lee blinked a couple of times
until he could focus on Jamie who was leaning over him smiling. Lee turned his
head to look around and groaned softly as the small movement started an
avalanche of pain. He tried to put his hand on his stomach but someone had
grabbed his wrist and was holding his arm on the bed.
“Don’t move, Skipper, I’m
going to give you something to help with the pain.” Jamieson moved out of his
line of sight and he could see Chip looking at him, his eyes an icy blue.
He realized now it was Chip’s
hand holding his wrist pinned to the bunk. He tried to smile at his friend but
he could already feel Jamie’s something for the pain ruining his
coordination and he didn’t know if he’d smiled or not. He tried to say he was
sorry but didn’t know if he’d spoken or not.
“Not now, Lee, we’ll talk
about it later, just get through this and we’ll talk about it.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Go to sleep, we can talk
later.”
Lee had to be content with
that because he found he couldn’t say anything more and somewhere in that
realization he must have fallen asleep. When he woke the admiral was bent over
a lap top computer cursing softly as he angrily punched keys with an obvious
disregard for the well being of the machine. Lee guessed he must have made a
noise because the admiral looked up at him.
“You look a little better
than the last time you woke up. Here.” Nelson offered him a glass and straw.
The water was cool and wonderful on his dry throat. “Not too much.”
“When?” He managed to get out past what felt like someone
else’s mouth. He had a hard time coordinating his lips and tongue to form the
words and thought more water might have helped.
“You’ve been back for a bit
over twenty four hours, we were getting worried about
you.” Nelson seemed very happy about something and Lee tried to smile but with
returning consciousness came returning pain and he
knew his smile was mostly a grimace.
“Will,” Nelson called.
He caught a quick glance of
Jamieson and then felt a cottony vagueness settle over him and he lost whatever
the two men were discussing.
The next time Lee woke he was
propped up in the bed so he was half sitting and the sickbay lights were turned
low. He looked around enough to determine he was alone, no Chip. He cautiously
turned his head until he could see the big clock over the sickbay hatch. 0140.
He reached out with his right hand and rested it against the bulkhead. Felt
like two-thirds speed. That was good. The vibration was steady and smooth so Seaview
must be okay. He tried to think about Chip not sitting beside him but lost the
thread of his thoughts in a few moments.
The next time he opened his
eyes the admiral was beside his bunk again the sickbay lights burning brightly.
“Good morning.” Nelson
offered the welcome glass of water.
“So, um, dare I ask?”
“Almost thirty six hours,
we’re heading toward home, we’ll be there in another
five days.”
Lee nodded his head slightly,
afraid of setting off the pain and was pleased when it didn’t hurt as much as
he’d feared. “How’s Pat?”
“He needed about ten stitches
but he’s back on duty, sitting down mostly.”
“And Chip?”
“He’s fine. They found you
without any trouble, never saw a patrol until they got
to you, where they found what remained of one.” Nelson looked at him
quizzically, but didn’t say anything more when Lee shook his head.
“Not what I meant,” Lee said
after a moment’s silence.
“He hasn’t said anything to
me. Why? Is there something wrong?”
“No, no.” Lee paused, sorry
he’d said anything; this wasn’t the admiral’s problem to sort out. “I just
wondered…” Lee looked toward the ceiling for a moment and then back at the admiral.
“Your homing device, it was brilliant. You saved my life.”
“I’m sorry it was necessary.
Chip said the mission was a failure and the rest of the team was killed?”
Lee looked away; he could
hear the sound of the gunfire as they approached the beach. Those
last ten seconds when they were committed to the landing, beyond the surf line
so it would take too long to swim away, already standing, weighed down by the
scuba gear and betrayal. Steve and Mike trying to drag
Chaffee and Des out of the water while he lay down covering fire. But
there’d been nowhere to go; only the rocks across the pebble beach, the rocks
full of shooters killing them.
“It didn’t go very well,” he
said when he realized he’d been quiet too long. He looked down at the arm that
had the IV port; the admiral’s hand was holding his wrist. It was that warm
touch that had brought him back from the remembering.
“Not now, time enough later
for that, when you’re feeling better.”
Lee shook his head, he didn’t think there would ever be a good time to
remember, or ever a time when he wouldn’t. The pale green around Chaffee and
Des in the water, the night vision goggles picking up their blood warming the
cold northern Pacific water. The sight of men dead when they should have been
alive wouldn’t be leaving him soon. He closed his eyes and turned his head away
from the admiral but that only made it worse as the pale green of the blood
seemed to be painted on his eyelids.
“We’ll be home soon, there’s
nothing you need to do except listen to Jamie and get well.”
“Admiral,” Jamieson said,
coming up beside Nelson and looking down at Lee. “Could you excuse us for a few
minutes, I need to do some bandage changing.”
Nelson gave Lee’s wrist a
quick squeeze before rising. “I’ll be back later.”
Lee nodded, suddenly too
tired to string together the words necessary to say good-bye.
Jamieson picked up his wrist.
“You were looking a little worn out to me.”
“Yeah,” Lee agreed.
“You took a tremendous
beating, Skipper,” Jamieson said, seeming to read his mind, “and you lost a lot
of blood from that wound in your side. That along with the exposure and
infection wore you out, it’s going to be a while
before you’re up for much visiting.”
Lee turned his head away from
Jamie tired of the whole tedious healing process.
“You’re on the mend, Lee,
we’ve gotten the fever down, once that’s gone you’ll start feeling better, I
promise.”
Lee nodded his head but
didn’t bother to look as Jamieson began messing with the bandage around his
middle. He was so tired he couldn’t think and he was worried about Chip.
When next he woke his fever
seemed mostly to be gone, he could think clearly and unfortunately he could
feel clearly as well. As long as he remained perfectly still the wound in his
side was a dull ache. When he tried to move his broken ribs hurt so much he had
trouble catching his breath. Of all the things that could happen to a man in a fight broken ribs were the worse. Other things got
casts and stitches and salves but broken ribs hurt until they stopped hurting,
no medicine for ribs. He lay perfectly still and waited for sleep too tired to
do anything else.
********
“If I help you to sit up do
you think you can manage to eat something?” Jamieson gave him his doctor’s
smile, which Lee felt no responsibility to return. He
was hungry though and considered what Jamieson had said. He knew the sitting up
was going to be an unpleasant process and wondered if it was worth it.
“What’re you offering,
Jell-O?” Lee said with as sour a look as he could manage.
Jamieson laughed a little and
said, “Chicken soup?”
“I’m not sure it’s worth it
to me.”
“You eat the soup and I’ll
pull the IV.”
“Deal.”
Jamieson was gentle and
expert in his assistance but it still hurt like the very devil. By the time Lee
was sitting with several pillows stuffed behind him what little appetite he’d
had was gone.
“Rest for a while, the soup
won’t be here for a few minutes.”
Lee nodded his head,
exhausted. He was thinking he didn’t seem to bounce back the way he used to
when the admiral came in carrying a tray, which he set down on the small table
next to the bunk.
“Jamie said you might be up
for some company for supper.”
Lee glanced over at Jamieson
who had a self-satisfied smile on his face, “Did he?”
A few minutes of fussing
about with tables and cups and napkins and Lee was
sipping hot soup out of a mug while the Admiral ate his dinner. The process of
moving the mug from the table to his mouth was taking most of Lee’s
concentration and energy so he was pleased that the admiral was supplying all of
the dinner conversation. The monologue seemed to be primarily about a small
anemone that Nelson had found in some local water samples that he speculated
might be related to another anemone from the Northern Philippine Sea. Since Lee
had no recollection of any anemone he let much of the dialogue roll over him
while he thought about Nelson sitting beside him and not Chip.
“And so I’m thinking the
purple, polka-dotted anemone might well be related to the yellow stripped one,”
the admiral finished cheerfully.
It took Lee a moment to
process the last comment and turn an apologetic look toward Nelson.
“I’m sorry, sir, I seem to be
only marginally attached to my environment at the moment.”
“It’s
okay, Lee, I shouldn’t have brought up the whole anemone project. I was
supplying dinner conversation when I should have just been supplying company.”
“I do appreciate the company,
sorry for my lack of focus.”
“You up to telling me what
happened?”
Lee sat silently for a minute
trying to think what he could say that wouldn’t require remembering the past
three weeks. He could feel the admiral looking at him but he didn’t want to
speak, to remember.
“Blown
mission from start to finish… never any chance of success. I know we had to try and see what was causing the satellite
blackout… but it was hopeless… pointless without better intel…”
Lee’s voice trailed off at the end as he used his good hand to gather up the
napkin Jamie had placed on top of his blanket. He focused all of his attention
on the napkin as he crumpled it up into a ball using his fingers and thumb to
push the errant edges into his fist. He didn’t look at the admiral or think
about anything but the napkin. He couldn’t seem to fit the whole thing into his
palm. He worked on the edges with his fingers trying to push the cloth into his
closed hand. The admiral reached over and covered his fist and the napkin with
his own hand, stilling Lee’s fingers. The two men sat not speaking until Lee
looked up at Nelson.
“I’ll put that on the tray
for you,” Nelson said, pulling the napkin from his suddenly slack fingers. “We
can talk about this later.”
Lee looked away from Nelson
and the napkin, and let his head fall back against the pillows. “I’ve lost track of time.”
“You’ve been back aboard about
forty-eight hours.”
Lee didn’t make any comment,
forcing his attention away from the conversation. “How’s Pat?”
“He’s on the mend, won’t be
running in any races for a few weeks, but he’ll be fine. You want to tell me
what the problem is with Chip?”
“Problem,
sir?”
“Does that mean you don’t
want to tell me or you didn’t think I knew there was something wrong?”
“I think it means I’m not
coherent enough right now,” Lee said after a moment.
“You’re tired, go to sleep
and digest that supper.”
“Thank you, Admiral.”
********
Nelson stood at the bottom of
the stairs in the nose of Seaview and studied Chip. The younger man was
leaning on the sill below Seaview’s big windows apparently lost in
thought. Something had happened between Chip and Lee, upsetting the equilibrium
of their close friendship. Nelson was fairly sure that a large part of it was
Lee’s sending Chip and Patterson back to Seaview while he remained to
cover their retreat. But he suspected there was more to it than that. He’d
tried to ask Lee since he was closer to his young captain than he was to the
often-enigmatic Chip. Lee wouldn’t or couldn’t tell him what the problem was,
that left Chip.
“Lee’s been asking for you,”
Nelson said, walking over to stand beside the other man.
Chip straightened up and
turned, obviously surprised by the admiral’s presence. “I’ll stop by tomorrow, it’s late now.”
Nelson walked over to the
credenza and poured two mugs of coffee and handed one to Chip. “Sit down, I want to talk to you for a few minutes.”
Chip took the coffee and sat
down opposite the admiral at the small conference table. He took a swallow and
then placed the cup in front of him. “How’s he doing?” All of Chip’s attention
seemed to be focused on his cup as he asked the question.
“He’s sore and still very
tired but Will’s found the right combination of antibiotics to beat the fever,
so he’s doing better.” In a surprisingly gentle tone of voice Nelson asked,
“You want to tell me what’s wrong, why you’re sitting here instead of in
sickbay?”
Chip shook his head, never
taking his attention off his cup of coffee, “I’ve been trying to figure that
out myself. I’m not sure I know, it’s just… he made me so angry.”
“Sending you and Patterson
back while he stayed?” Nelson spoke slowly, not looking at Chip but rather
studying the dark ocean outside the windows. “He keeps asking for you and when
I make your excuses, he says he’s sorry. I knew something had happened.”
“Not only that… I understand
why he did it, he was probably right to do it. I’m not sure we could have
carried him although we would have given it a good try.” Chip was silent a
moment moving his cup around the table.
“I think Patterson and I
could have gotten him out even with Pat’s injury, but I couldn’t talk to him
about any other plan. He was determined to stay, determined to sacrifice
himself, if need be, so we got away. He does it over and over and I can’t
reason with him.”
Chip was speaking faster now
and Nelson made no effort to stop him. He wasn’t sure Chip could say all of
this to Lee, but he needed to say it someone.
“Why? Why does he do that?
He’s going to get himself killed and I don’t understand why he does it!” Chip
sat back in his chair at this last part and looked over at Nelson meeting his
eyes this time. “Why does he do that?”
Nelson smiled slightly
thinking that if Lee and Chip had been two women they would have analyzed their
relationship and figured each other’s weaknesses and strengths in that first
month at the Academy. Being two men they’d gone with the flow, each man
accommodating himself to the other but never thinking
what made their friendship work. He saw Chip’s mouth start to tighten and
realized the other man had misinterpreted his smile.
“Don’t get angry with me
now.” Nelson smiled more broadly as he saw Chip put his command look on, all
emotion wiped from his face.
“No, sir.”
“I smiled because I was
surprised you didn’t know why Lee keeps putting himself in harm’s way to
protect those for whom he feels responsible. I shouldn’t have smiled, forgive
me. I’m sure you two have never talked about it. You get angry and you try to
protect him. He gets quiet and feels sad because he’s upset you. Not a formula
for understanding.”
Nelson could see Chip
relaxing as he took a moment to think.
“We aren’t big talkers, I’m
more likely to give him a dressing down for trying to get himself killed than
try to talk to him about the ‘whys’ of his actions. We aren’t into the ‘get in
touch with your feelings’ thing.”
Nelson nodded. He would have been very surprised if Chip and
Lee had ever spoken to each other about their friendship. It was a shame that
none of them could talk about their affection for each other. He knew they all
recognized the unique kind of friendship that had grown up between the three of
them in the last year. But he also knew he could no more tell Lee how fond he’d
become of him than Chip could.
“This last little stunt
though, it was different. I’ve always viewed each event as a single instance.
Then, back there in those woods, when he sent Pat and I on and stayed behind…
suddenly I could see the whole pattern. It was like a light bulb went off and I could see how many times he’s done that, sent
someone out of danger while he stayed behind to take the risk.” Chip was quiet
for a moment and then looking down at his cup said softly, “I accused him of
having a death wish, but I know he doesn’t and he’s not reckless, he’s actually
quite cautious about most things, and then he does something like that and.…”
Chip stopped speaking.
Nelson pushed his coffee cup
from hand to hand as he searched for the words to explain his thoughts to Chip.
“Most of what shapes the midshipmen at Annapolis isn’t the curriculum,
it's the traditions of the Academy and the other students. The staff tries to
teach what naval officers need to know to run ships and fight wars, but it’s
the other students that shape the character of the men that the midshipmen
become. I think that more than most of the youngsters Lee came to the Academy
looking for ideas of what kind of man he was going to be, a role model if you
will.” Nelson glanced over at Chip who nodded back at him. “He found that in
you.”
“Me? We were roommates, good
friends, but, no, I can’t see that.”
“You were young, too, Chip,
not as young as Lee, but young and growing and changing yourself. I had my eye
on both of you those first three years when I was teaching at the Academy. You
were always the big brother of the pair. You were the one with the social
confidence and the sure answers to the tough questions. Even now when you two
are off the boat in any sort of a social setting Lee tends to defer to you as
the senior partner in your friendship.”
Chip shook his head slowly.
“I don’t know, Admiral, that seems like a stretch to
me, Lee as little brother, maybe once, maybe at the Academy, but not now, No.
Lee knows his own mind and is as assertive as I am.”
“Maybe, but how many captains
do you know who would let their XOs tell them to bundle up and wear a hat? You
know you’re closer than friends, more like brothers and you’re big brother, the same qualities that make you such a great exec make you
a good big brother. When it mattered, when Lee was young and learning what made
a man you were one of his role models. I’m not saying the only one, but
absolutely a very important one.” Nelson smiled at the bemused look on Chip’s
face as he tried to assimilate this idea. “When you see Lee stepping into
danger to save someone what you’re seeing is the result of the example you set
for him. So the next time you get angry at Lee Crane for going where angels fear to tread you remember who inspired that in him.” Now
Nelson was smiling broadly at Chip. “He’s partly your fault, Mr. Morton, so I
suggest you continue to bear your share of the burden of keeping him in one
piece.”
Chip smiled back at Nelson. “Little brother, huh, well, if he’s still
under my influence at all then he’d better know he’s about to get a serious
telling off for being stupid and reckless.
He shouldn’t have accepted that assignment in the first place, God only
knows I’ve been telling him that for over ten years, and he should have let me
stay and help him.”
“I couldn’t agree with you
more, Mr. Morton, and I wonder why you haven’t told him this?”
Chip looked at his watch. “It’s pretty late,” he said hesitantly.
“He was awake when I left the
sickbay half an hour ago.” Nelson didn’t
bother mentioning that Lee had been awake and worried about Chip. He knew that Lee could better handle Chip
angry and remonstrating about ONI in sickbay than he could handle Chip brooding
in the bow of the boat.
“I could check and see if
he’s still awake before I turn in,” Chip said, rising from his chair.
“Good idea. Oh and Chip, if I were you I’m not sure I
would tell him that you led a team on to that beach in broad daylight to go
after him. He might think that was
reckless and dangerous.”
Chip gave him a surprised
look and then ducked his head sheepishly.
“He’ll read it in the log, sir.”
“Yes and he’ll be angry to
find out how unnecessarily dangerous a chance you took.”
“It wasn’t unnecessary, sir,
he would have been dead if we’d waited until dark to go back for him.”
“Yes, I think you’re right.” Nelson leaned back in his chair and watched
Chip as a thoughtful look came over his face, “Go down to sickbay, he’s no
doubt waiting for your latest evaluation of ONI.”
“Thank you, sir,” Chip said
before turning and heading aft.
Nelson watched him go, thinking the best thing that had ever happened to either
officer was an arbitrary room assignment twelve years ago.
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